Happy 2024 !!😅
With no further due, last year was the most high low year of my adult life.
2023 I got to experience the best dates i` ve ever been on. I met the guy closest to my desires I`ve ever met. I also dealt with the feeling of "feeling alone" for the first time in a long time. I learned more about myself then I have ever been in a while. Things like the foods I been eating are linked to my lack of emotional needs that i`ve allowed food to act as a substitute in place of just facing them.
This explains why I gained so much weight that I couldn't recognize myself I felt so a shame and unattractive . This also explains why I hated taking pictures.
The pro to this downfall is it caused me to be focus on other things then being gorgeous. I worked more, picked up new hobbies and experimented new places and things this caused me to be less vain wearing odd clothes. This also allowed me to really sit in my sorrows and the uncomfortable truth I feel about myself even as far back as my childhood.
Through all of this I was trying the dating scene out on the quest to be available for this husband of mine. While still trying to be a better friend/sister to the women I so adored I found myself feeling like a fool.
The more you learn the more you question. I learned I`ve outgrown friends places and spaces last year too. A few ways to know your friendship has ran it`s course is when the relationship feels stagnate and boring. Along with one sided and unfruitful. The process of transitioning out of a friendship can be very difficult. Especially if you suffer from abandonment issues like myself ,cause you start to feel like your letting the other person down. When in fact you are doing the best thing for your growth and truth . I said all of this to say "2023" was the year of "Truth and uncomfortably" .
I plan the year to follow(2024) to be the year of "living in my truth" . Using the tools I`ve gotten in 2023 to work for my advantage to elevate.
MOVING FORWARD 2024
Take a moment to breath.
In and OUT.
2023 was the year of experiences and a hint of reality!
I can't talk about the past without endorsing the future. So far I am starting off so well all the things I want to accomplish I've broken them down and put them on a month to do list so far soooo good !!!
I wanted to take up self defense class boom executed that! Every month I execute
Something off my goals list and it feels amazing.
Here's what my calendar looks like with a sticky note of this month's goal 😌
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